I don't get it. If you say you know the cure is right here, right now then why don't you just go for it? The general knowledge about FD you are expecting to be available is here, today.In general we tend to make a mystery out of anything we don't know - even simple things. It's the same with FD: it depresses us so much we can't believe the solution is simple. Once understood we just have to walk the path, keep a clear head, stick to the plan and not give up.
I just had a class with Prof Fabra last night. He told me when a camel gets lost in the desert he keeps walking straight ahead until he finds water. If he would walk round in circles he would die for sure. This means any alternative technique is not walking straight ahead but in circles.
Why I'm saying all this to you is because I did exactly the same as you for 8 years. You can spare a lot of time if you are being honest to yourself. Oh, and don't hate me for being sincere, I'm just trying to help.
